*

.

I decided I had to open the door

at night

and step outside

walk alone in the dark at night

it had been a long time

since I did it last

.

autumn had fallen with

its sadness and abandonments

I retrieved in pain and since

then I hardly ever

stepped on the ground

around my house at night

.

I had heard the wind a bit

from the hot bath tub

while dealing with heaviness

in my mind

trying in vain to stay afloat

I was a new season approaching

that was clear