*

–

it had been a long time

since I sat here – listening

to night’s nature

searching words

reasoning pain out

it had been a long time

since I had done this

in English

. 

may be to draw away

from you – as I fear

the end of us – of this

half life you are handing me

that seems to not be

sufficient for me

any longer

.

I sat and recon myself a woman

a venerable woman I knew

diverse – as if she had

crossed many continents

on feet and wings

in the dark season

 .

finding herself

on the porch once again

wondering over a map

of tender love on which

she had lost the way

one more time

.

.